MISSweetyMISSpokenMISSloveMISSedMISScellanyThursday, March 03, 2005
I thought from all the things that had happened last year, confusion will spare me. Now, I felt like nature is in conspiracy to cook something up for me and make me feel this way again. I have never felt so stressed out in a matter of second. Probably because it's just now that stress (with a capital S) coupled with tension and anxiety finally sink in. My mom's sick and I am miles away from her. I have to make decisions, hopefully the right one and fast... At first, it wasn't a big deal that she was rushed to the hospital (she didnt make it a big deal) because she said everything was okay and in control. The second time was suspicious already because the interval from her last visit in ER was just 2 days. Everyday I get more and more worried, most worried when she tried to hide her real disposition. I'm torn between my career and the love of the family but of course anybody in her right mind will choose the latter part. The irritating part is that my mom wouldn't let me know what's really happening so that I won't get worried, but the more she hides it from me, the more I get stressed out. Arrrrgggh! I hate this, I love my mom and terribly miss my family. I just wish things will go my way if not in the near future... eventually.Sweetalicious`SmuacKs
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