I am now twenty-five. Before, I used to have this notion that at this age, I am someone big or at least have done something big.
As time passed by, aspirations become harder to reach. I used to be way too idealistic and now I’ve become too grounded (and I have experiences, life’s lessons & hardships to thank for that).
For me, I see things ahead of me easier than what I used to want. Before, I used to want a palace on a hill but now, I am okay with a nipa hut in a bukid (not to be taken literally, of course). I want to be able to finish my current "post-graduate" degree and use that when I finally leave home and start on my own. Independence has always been my thing ever since I was younger. I want to be able to work in an environment which does not feel like work when I start getting on my “own” life - - meaning miles away from my family. You see, I don’t have anything against living with my family, it’s just that I am not totally on my own if I have to obey my parents’ rules since I am still under their roof.
I want to be able to own a condo unit doesn’t matter how small or how metropolitan it is… I just want it clean, cozy and very ‘homey’. I want to be able to live with someone I truly love and to wake up everyday with this significant other and share my everything. I want to be able to sincerely enjoy time with friends and family (including relatives) as well. I pray that I (or any of my loved ones) won't be able to face crimes or anything related to that. I just want a simple life, as simple as it can get. I wanna be the first person to go before anyone does.
You think I can do that in 5 years? I sure hope so… is it too much to ask for?
P.S. (after exactly 18 minutes) I picked up a copy of Lifestyle Asia, April ish (which reminded me also that I want the current issue of Philippine Tatler), browsing through the pages, seems obvious that I am not TOTALLY ready to give up that kind of life. Not just yet.
I think I can compromise. Yeah?
I remember my boss from ABS-CBN telling me “Why don’t you be a trophy wife?” It didn’t sound like an inquiry to me; it was as if she was directly suggesting me to do it. I wish I can!
MISSweety
