Sunday, February 25, 2007
Very Apt Indeed!
Blogging can get really addicting, like that pringle's ad "once you pop, you can't stop"... hmmm not to mean anything naughty ;p. I was just trying to browse thru my horoscope on friendster when it suddenly hit me. THERE IT IS!!! Like a screamer... in plain black and white:
Friendster Horoscope February 25, 2007
The Bottom Line
Romance is supposed to be fun -- if yours isn't fun now, it's time to take a break.
In Detail
Romance is supposed to be fun, not a chore -- right? So if you're grimly working on getting closer to someone right now, stop what you're doing. The stress isn't good for you. Arguments, missed dates, conflict -- these aren't merely obstacles to moving your relationship forward. They may be signs that now is not the time for the two of you. Step back from the relationship and give the other person time to realize how much he or she misses you when you're not around.
Hmmm... you think it's time to stop all these nonsens b.s.?!?
Sweetalicious`SmuacKs
2:44 AM
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
Hey girl!!! I miss you so much! We got so many things to talk about... But first, what happened? Why single? So the wedding's postponed now or really cancelled?!
This may sound selfish but I kinda am happy that I don’t have to compete anymore for your attention haha. Can you be single for the next couple of years hahahaha, im thinking of moving to Texas if it’s okay with you hahaha. ; )
About your post #8. "I got no plans for Christmas yet. Any (cheap) suggestions?" How about we meet up? My family is planning to spend Christmas in Phuket, Thailand, you wanna join us? Dali let’s go! I know that's cheap for you, sus, you earn green money y'know! =p
Master Noel is getting married next year, February 3, you have to be there. Gosh, I am excited for him, not that I am inggit or anything, to be honest I can't really see myself married yet at least for a couple of years ;) haha, it's just that he's the first person to get married among my closest of closest friends... Anyway, let's talk! ASAP!
Sweetalicious`SmuacKs
5:06 PM
Sunday, October 29, 2006
Wow! It's been ages. I can't believe I have not been blogging my emotions out. Probably because i've become too keen on something... or should i say someone? Hmmm...
Nothing really significant comes in mind, these are just random thoughts that I'd like to jot down just so I'll have another irrelevant post (which is by the way, long overdue) here in my blog.
Grrrr, it's efffing freezing where I am right now. People told me to bring summer clothes, and now where did it bring me? I ended up borrowing the boys' baggy clothes. Fudge, I pee like every five seconds. I hate it! My skin's cracking up because it's too dry... shet. But it's all good.
*currently listening to Breathe by Telepopmusik*
P.S. I'm not sure how to forget about the past seven months, but we'll see how everything goes. I hope and I pray this roller-coaster ride ends soon.
Sweetalicious`SmuacKs
11:37 AM
Thursday, July 27, 2006
Anything Less Than Mad Love Is A Waste Of Your Time by Leah S. Casta
One of the most recently released movies that have perhaps hit home (cringe!), so to speak, is the low-budget "Dream for an Insomniac" starring Ione Skye and Jennifer Aniston. The lead actor used to be a child star but unfortunately, the movies which catapulted him to fame have already slipped my mind. Try to rent a copy of this movie not because of the talent of those who starred in it but because of the dialogue.
One of those lines which bore a hole in my heart was, and I quote (not verbatim, though):
"I don't want to be sixty years old and married to my second-best choice, wondering what ever happened to the one who got away."
This is just one of the two great lines in that movie. I'll tell youwhat the other one is later.
Meantime, let me concentrate on this line-the line that sends chills down your spine once you decide to spend more than five seconds thinking about it.
Have you ever wondered what it must feel like married to the one you settled on? This truly gives me great feelings of anxiety.
It might be difficult to accept the word "settle" because it conjures up images of quasi- happiness and half-hearted glee.
Yes, there is some sort of satisfaction and perhaps, some feeling of security that can be derived from such a partnership but I wonder, could there be anything more?
To settle is to ultimately accept what is within reach, what is available, what is there. To settle is to convince one's self that the decision about to be made is inevitable, realistic, and safe.
To settle is to risk not ever being truly happy because one decides to adopt the worst type of bahala na attitude on life's greatest challenges. And settling is a sorry consequence of the passage of time. Yes, time can be the balm that soothes open, painful wounds in one's heart but it can also be that dark force that manipulates one's mind into thinking and believing that the choice one has made is the best choice... the only choice.
What time does, and I'm sure you'll agree, is it lodges one's mind and heart in a cage with the door partly open -- with the promise of a better life losing its appeal over the reality of the present, the convenient, and the routine.
Time also pressures one into selecting a suitor or spouse because 'wala nang iba' (there is no one else) and 'nagmamadali na ako' (I'm in a hurry) and there, 'puwede na rin.' (I'll make do).
The wickedness of "settling" is not one way. It also eventually hurts the one who was chosen because in all respects, the truth will surface. You no doubt realize that you just wasted each other's time and emotions. But then again, if your spouse chose you not because he or she "settled," then forget about the win-win situation you were gunning for.
Frankie (Ione Skye) delivered that line when she was deciding whether or not to do everything possible to win David Shrader's really think it wise to split up with his girlfriend of three years on a limb. Very much unlike you and me, Frankie is very a typical of the Rules Girl. She went for David, bared her soul, and tried to convince him that he will only be happy with her. She then gave him the other great line in the movie to make him leave his girlfriend for her.
"Anything less than mad, passionate love is a waste of my time."
In the end, David left his girlfriend for Frankie and they lived happily ever after. Wow. Many times, in my not too colorful past, I almost gave in to the urge to tell the boy I liked what I felt for him. In all those times, I opted otherwise for fear of my mother's wrath and, of course, embarrassment in case of rejection. I am scared of losing my precious dignity and pride in case he tells me that he only sees me as a friend. I'm sure you got through these exercises in your psyche too. Sometimes, our hearts win out over our brains when our certainty over the outcome is great. I try to espouse The Rules and very rarely make the first move. More often than not, I wait for the guy to call. Now you know that I'm one of those who walk the avenues of life on a sidewalk-never off it.
Now, I'm starting to believe otherwise. I see the beauty in sharing your feelings with the one you love -- not because you expect something in return but because life cannot be lived otherwise. It is a great, big step for an otherwise conservative, 'torpe' girl like you and me but if you think about it, it's the only way to go.
Richard Paul Evans' bestseller after The Christmas Box-The Locket- tells us the story of a woman who fell in love with a soldier when they were both very young. They shared their feelings with each other and were very happy.
Eventually, he went off to war and she married somebody else, thinking he wouldn't return to her. Years passed and they lived their separate lives-he married and had a family while the woman's husband and son eventually succumbed to illnesses and died. She decided to wait for her soldier's wife to die before she came back to him -- because she didn't think it was right to complicate his life. The wait took more than sixty years until she eventually found the announcement of his wife's death in the obituary. By this time, the woman was already 80 and could barely walk. Sadly, by the time she managed to find her soldier to tell him she loved him, he was already senile. The woman eventually died a few days after seeing her soldier and perhaps going through the most heart-wrenching experience in her life. She was too late.
The morals of the stories I have mentioned above are similar and almost connected to each other. Perhaps another book theme that we can tie into these is that line from The Bridges of Madison County -- "This kind of certainty comes but once in a lifetime."
I am of the belief that each person is given the chance to find his one true love as he goes about his life. Sometimes, the opportunity is not too obvious, especially for those who are content with their situation and therefore are not seeking "greener pastures." These times, the chance is often passed up.
The luckier ones are those who are probably more clear-minded and in touch with their emotions because they can easily recognize what is staring them in the face. Whether this chance is passed up or not, I know that the feeling one gets when this chance is still within reach is one of certainty. Yes, it is also accompanied with feelings of danger, of risk, and of possible pain but compensating for this is that inexplicable "sureness," that sense of profound happiness that has never been derived anywhere else but from that one person who just happened to pass by in your tidy little life.
I call true love a gift because of its rarity. It does not happen everyday. If you pass it up the first time, try not to be too arrogant to look away when it comes by the second time. You may ask me "how will I know if this is my true love?" My answer to that is this: true love is that strong, awesome feeling that scares the hell out of you but always makes you unbearably happy. It doesn't go away, no matter how much you will it to.
More than anything else, you'll know in your heart when you meet him that he is the one. He doesn't become the one the same way that soulmates do not become soulmates later in life. With him, you are damn certain that you are not settling. With him, you know that youwill be sixty years old and never wondering about the one that got away because he never did. He's right there holding your hand.
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As-i... as-in... assh*le! ;) Cryptex, anyone?
Sweetalicious`SmuacKs
2:35 PM
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
SHOWTIMES
Today at 11:00 pm
Sat, 8 Jul at 3:30 pm
Sun, 16 Jul at 10:35 pm
Mon, 24 Jul at 2:00 pm
Tue, 25 Jul at 4:45 am
Fri, 28 Jul at 11:00 am
SOMETHING THE LORD MADE is a moving story of men who defy the rules and start a medical revolution. Their patients are known as the "blue babies" - infants suffering from a congenital heart defect that turns them blue as they slowly suffocate.
Alfred Blalock (Alan Rickman) and Vivien Thomas (Mos Def) make a brilliant team. But even as they race against time to save one particular baby, the two occupy different places in society. Blalock is the white, wealthy head of surgery at Johns Hopkins Hospital. Thomas is black and poor, a skilled carpenter whose dream of going to college and becoming a doctor was ruined by the Great Depression, although he was naturally gifted with the intuition and dexterity of a great surgeon.
Even as they save lives and invent a whole new field of medicine, social pressures threaten to tear them apart. Ultimately, however, Thomas finds his dreams coming true in unexpected ways.
Something the Lord Made premieres Sunday, May 30 at 9 p.m. ET/P.
Credits: (Dr. Alfred Blalock), Mos Def (Vivien Thomas), Kyra Sedgwick (Mary Blalock), Gabrielle Union (Clara Thomas), Charles Dutton (William Thomas), Mary Stuart Masterson (Dr. Helen Taussig). Casting by Lynn Kressel, C.S.A. and Pat Moran, C.S.A. Music Supervisor Evyen J Klean. Music by Christopher Young. Editor Michael Brown, A.C.E. Production Designer Vincent Peranio. Director of Photography Donald M. Morgan, ASC. Co-Producer Irving Sorkin. Produced by Julian Krainin, Mike Drake. Executive Producers Robert W. Cort, David Madden, Eric Hetzel. Based in part on the magazine article "Like Something The Lord Made" by Katie McCabe. Written by Peter Silverman and Robert Caswell. Directed by Joseph Sargent
Sweetalicious`SmuacKs
11:39 PM
Friday, June 23, 2006
Today isn't so bad after all!
Check this out... laughed my heart out.
Sweetalicious`SmuacKs
4:34 AM
Warning: This isn’t me talking, I think it's the caffeine.
I just have to vent. Sorry.
Earlier today, while crossing a 10-minute thoroughfare from Glorietta to Greenbelt (which we all know won’t really take 10 minutes), someone pissed me off.
Coming from the basement parking of Glorietta, I signaled in advance that I intend to go straight. As I let a couple of cars illegally ‘pushed me over’, I got irritated that more and more cars would like to abuse me. “Hell no!”, I thought. I couldn’t let everyone pass, I am not THAT kind. Besides, these people did not have the right of way, they needed to wait for their turn.
When my turn finally came, a feeble man wearing yellow and green (which really looked like a fashion disaster to me) made me halt. I didn’t know what for and so I signaled, ‘what for?’. He wouldn’t budge, so I gestured my incomprehension which made him step aside and lean on my left window. So I asked verbally “What’s wrong?” But I didn’t get anything. Nada. Zip! I asked again, “What’s the problem?” He didn’t say a word.
Anyway, I explained what I think my ‘violation’ at that time – that I got stuck because of those fecking bastards that when I finally got through, the lights suddenly changed to red but I made it clear that I did not beat the red light. Honestly, it was still on yellow and everybody knows that it is PERFECTLLY LEGAL to go through a yellow light especially when stopping will cause accident/s. Ideally we’re supposed to stop on yellow but what if you’re already moving when it turned from green to yellow? And the main point here is that, I DID NOT INTENTIONALLY BEAT ANY FECKING RED LIGHT. To no avail, the eejit did not even open his mouth. He simply stared the effing whole time. What was I suppose to do? Wait there forever? I can’t read minds!!! I got so pissed that I ran away from him.
I am not proud of what I did, I am now getting guilty… but of what?
Sweetalicious`SmuacKs
3:37 AM
Saturday, June 17, 2006
I know I'm a sucker for soundtracks... well it doesn't really have to be pulled out from a movie. An example of this would be Narda by Kamikaze, I used to hate it but little by little, it grew on me. Now I'm liking it a lot (both versions actually). I remember Jeff and I talked about music making up the mood. For us though, we don't really hang on to the context of the song, our mood is dependent on the situations occured when that specific song was a 'hit' or uso should I say.
Like this song by Rhett Miller, it started playing in my head over and over again when I saw Scrubs the other day...
"I'm dressed all in white and I remember the night
You came on to me and opened up my heart
I was hollow then till you filled me in
Now I'm empty again I should have never let it start"
This song is Come Around, and yep, this is the famous "am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life?" thingy... siyet!
Now, this utterly bitter song by Up Dharma Down (going back to OPM) is another threat albeit the accompanying nice and jazzy melody and rhythm huh?
it started with... "di mo lang alam, naiisip kita,
baka sakali lang maisip mo ako."
and ended with "oo, malas mo,
ikaw ang natipuhan ko,
di mo lang alam,
ako'y iyong nasaktan."
Tsk, tsk, tsk... this is what I get from my LL (literature) college classes.
Sweetalicious`SmuacKs
11:03 PM
MISSweety
